I have been in love with Matt for years. While I was studying Computer Science, he was the best student in the Department of Communication and Performing Arts of Bowen University, same institution as mine.
Epitome of Excellence, beauty and Godlines…
I felt tingling in my heart as he proposed to me last week over a meal at shoprite, RingRoad, Ibadan. It was a shock, and stammering, I gave a confident ¡®yes¡¯
I woke up as early as 4am the following day and sitting up, I stared at the platinum ring he had proposed with the day before- if I don¡¯t wear rings, I could as well admire it and smile happily.
I decided to have my morning devotion. I knelt down, sang with great enthusiasm. Then it was time for me to pray with a particular song that I sing everyday.
Not what I wished to be Nor where I wished to go For who am I , that I should choose my way The Lord shall choose for me Its better, that I know So, let Him bid me go or stay!
It was a bomb! I am by His grace, an ardent listener of His and I know how He speaks to me.
*Then I heard Him say*
¡°daughter! He¡¯s ur choice, not mine. If you know my will for you, then you will know Matt is not even up to the half¡±
I cried! If not Matt, who else in this world? Oh dear God! I was sad!
¡°I will console you dearie, you will know him in a day. Just pray submissively for hours till your pride and desires die, and mine is upheld in your heart¡±
Then I poured myself out. Once I became emptied of self, I saw clearly!
So clearly and plainly that i wanted to swallow me. God why? Why should this happen to me? Why should it be this guy! How could this miserable guy be better than Matt! I am in soup!
I hate to fall into God¡¯s wrath for disobedience but Dave! That Dave!