my life as a shy guy

EPISODE 1
S ometimes I just wonder
why I was created this
way. why I can’t seem to
be comfortable when I’m
in the midst of people,
especially ladies. I had been
this way ever since I was a kid.
I’m already on my early
twenties but my issue is not
getting better. It had even
worsened. I can’t believe that
at this stage of my life, I still
don’t know how to approach
ladies. I had come in contact
with a number of nice ladies
that I love and would love to
spend the rest of my life with,
but due to my shy nature, I
could not approach them and
had lost them all. I still can’t
believe that I’m still a virgin at
this stage of my life. Not that
I’m a saint or something. I had
always wanted to take this
virginity of a thing off me, but
don’t know how to go about it.
I had never dated any lady all
my life. I dare not tell my
friends that I’m still a virgin,
because they would all laugh at
me. I always brag about how I
made a lady beg me to get her
laid whenever I’m with them,
but in reality, no such thing
had happened.
I always believed I could cope
with my shy and introverted
nature, but not until I gained
admission into the university.
it was when I gained
admission into the university
that I realized there is place
for people like me in the
university. it’s either I blend
in and associate with people or
be forever isolated.
it’s been three weeks since I
gained admission into the
university. We had already
completed the registration
process and lectures had also
started. The way I always see
students in my department
discussing and associating
with one another, made me
wondered if they had known
one another already, before
they gained admission. I
wished I could be like them
and interact more with my
coursemate, but my
introverted nature wouldn’t
allow me. I always try my best
not to be noticed in class. I
dare not raise my hand to
answer any question asked by
a lecturer, even though I knew
the answer.
One day in class, just
immediately we settled down
for lectures, our introduction
to statistics lecturer, Dr. Mike
walked into the class to
introduce his course. After
5minutes of speaking, he
asked a question which no one
could answer. He was very
disappointed and decided not
to speak further until someone
answer his question. I knew
the answer to Dr. Mike
question but dare not stand up
to answer his question. Just
imagining the number of eyes
that would be boring holes on
my body when I stand to
answer the question could
make my mind go blank.
Dr. Mike stared at us from the
podium while we stared back
at him, with no one making
attempt to answer his
question. After the long silence
in the class, he decided to
speak.
“so out of over a hundred
students in this class, no one
can answer the question I
asked” he said
Everyone in class remained
silent.
“this class can’t continue until
someone answer my question.
How am I suppose to teach
you if you don’t know the
basic of this course” he said
The class still remained silent.
He stared silently at us. After a
while if silence, an idea
crossed his mind.
“I know what to do” he said
walking closer to us.
“I will start pointing you to
answer the question and once
you fail to give me the right
answer, you will leave this
class and never attend any of
my classes for the rest of this
semester.” he said in serious
tone.
A faint murmur could be
heard in the class
“we you all keep shut” he
shouted in angry tone.
The look on his face showed
that he was very serious with
what he said.
I wished someone could just
answer his question and take
me out of the tensed situation
i was in. The class had
suddenly became too hot for
me to stay. I prayed silently
that God should divert the
lecturer’s attention away from
anything that would make him
notice me in class. Not that I
didn’t know the answer, but I
just couldn’t face the whole
class.
I could see the lecturer staring
at everyone faces, looking for
who to point. he stared at my
direction and a shiver went
down my spine. I suddenly
started sweating profusely.
“Hey, you over there” he said
pointing at my direction.
Even though he was pointing
at my direction, I was so sure
he was not pointing directly to
me. because there is no how
he could have pin-point me
out of over a hundred students
in class. so I looked back to
confirm who he was pointing
at. the person he was pointing
at must be behind me.
“why are you looking back?
I’m referring to you” he said
referring to me
“is it me sir?” I asked to be
sure he was referring to me.
“no, it’s me” he mimicked me
“come on stand up and answer
my question” he barked.
I suddenly became weak when
I realized he was actually
referring to me. how was I
suppose to stand and answer
question in a class of over
hundred students.
Just as I slowly stood up, I
could see over a hundred eyes
boring holes on my body. I
tried not to turn my head,
because my mind could go
blank if my eyes meet with
any lady in class. I cursed the
devil silently who had
succeeded in putting me in
such situation.
“will you answer my question
or get out of this class” Dr.
Mike barked when I didn’t say
anything after a while of
standing
“erm………erm……….” I
stammered

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EPISODE 3
I got home and freshened
up. I lay on my bed and
stare blankly at the
ceiling. The event of the
day flashed through my mind
and my mood suddenly
changed. I felt bad that I
couldn’t answer a question
confidently in class. Even
when joy approached me
nicely, I couldn’t even say a
word to her. Why am I always
like this? will I ever be
confident enough to speak
with a lady without feeling
nervous? when will I stop
behaving this way? Am I the
only one in this world with
this kind of personality? what
did I do wrong to be born with
this kind of trait? Am I cursed
or something? It seems like
i’m the only one in the world
with this trait. I have never
come across any shy guy all
my life. where did I get this
kind of trait from?
I was lost in thought.
The vibration of my phone
brought me back to reality. I
stretched my hand to my table
to get my phone. I stared into
the screen and saw that it was
an unknown number. My
heart missed a beat when I
realized I gave Joy my number.
I sat up immediately still
staring at my phone. I quickly
rehearsed a few words I would
say to her when I pick the call.
I took a deep breath and placed
my hand close to the green
button. While I was still
contemplating on whether to
pick the call, it suddenly
stopped ringing. it started
ringing almost immediately.
My phone suddenly became
too heavy for me to hold. I
needed to pick the call. I won’t
allow my personality to drive
away someone who seems to
care about me.
I summoned all the courage in
me to pick the call. I placed the
phone on my ear and said “hi”
in the nicest way I could.
“Guy you didn’t try at all. you
have forgotten about me. you
can’t even call me” the voice at
the other end said.
it wasn’t actually a lady’s voice. it was a
guy’s voice. I felt relieved
when I heard the voice.
“please who am I speaking
with?” I asked
“so you don’t recognize my
voice?”
The voice rang a well. I knew I
have heard that voice before. I
thought for a while.
“Daniel” I called
“yes it’s Daniel. I thought you
won’t recognize my voice.” he
said
“wow! so it’s you Daniel. long
time” I said happily
“yeah, long time” he
responded
“How are you?” I asked
“I’m fine and you”
“I’m fine too” I responded
“so how is school?” he asked
“school is fine”
“I hope those girls in school
are not giving you problem”
“not at all” I responded
“is this your number”
“yes this is my new number. I
said I should call you, since
you don’t want to call me”
“Daniel you know that’s not
true. if I had your number, I
would have called you” I said
“okay o, I just said I should
hear from you”
“you did very well. I’m very
grateful. I will save your
number.”
“okay then, we will talk later.”
Daniel said
“okay, thanks for the call”
I ended the call and stared at
my phone screen with smiles
on my face. it was good to
hear from Daniel. Daniel is my
childhood friend and a very
good adviser. I placed my
phone on the table and lay on
my bed.
Just immediately I placed the
phone on the table, it started
vibrating again. I took the
phone from the table and
picked the call without looking
at the caller.
“hello Daniel” I said into the
phone
“Christian” the caller called
I froze when I heard a lady’s
voice. I slowly removed the
phone from my ear and stared
into the screen. The number
was different from Daniel’s
number. I slowly placed the
phone back on my ear. I could
feel my heart pounding in my
chest.
“hello” I said calmly
“Christian how are you? This
is Joy”
“Joy. how……. how are you?” I
stammered
“Christian you don’t sound too
well. should I come over to
your place?”
“No, no” I cut in immediately
“I’m not at home”
“where did you go to?” she
asked
“I’m in the hospital”
“hospital!” she exclaimed
“is it that serious?”
What did I just say? I couldn’t
believe I just told her I was in
the hospital. I quickly took
back those words
“no Joy, I mean I went to get
some drugs from a pharmacy.”
“okay, how is your body” she
asked
“I’m fine now. I will call you
back. I’m on a busy road right
now” I said
“okay” she responded
I ended the call and took a
deep breath. I lay on my bed
and didn’t know when I slept
off